It’s been a long day y’all! I have had FOUR different ideas come to mind to write on today, but it was the third that brought me to the fourth, which is what I will touch on tonight.
I began my day by looking at social media when that alarm went off at 5 AM. One of the things that I look at each day is the “on this day” feature on FB that shows you what you were posting on this date 1, 2, 3, etc. years ago. One of those post had me in my feelings for about 2 hours this morning. Then as my night was ending about an hour ago, I ran into someone, and while the interaction was a positive one, the thoughts that came about afterwards were not. Le sigh!! So I thought about writing this blog about my failed attempts at law school and the stigma that has been attached to it. (please note that these failed attempts were by no means academic, just life dumping on me hard). However, then I got to thinking, I could fill this blog page up through and through with woe is me stories–I’ve got volumes to share–but that isn’t what I want this blog to be known for.
Yes, I started my day off in my feelings and I almost ended my day in my feelings, but I had a lot of good things happen today that should not be overshadowed by the insignificant “lows”. I think that is where many of us go wrong. We want to MAGNIFY everything that goes wrong in our lives, and brush under a rug all that good that exists. It goes back to what I was saying on yesterday about depression. There is a war being waged on our minds and we must fight it both consciously and unconsciously.
Today was a good day. I registered for a grant writing class (something else I am about to add to my growing list of titles!). I led a pretty dynamic & successful networking mixer tonight. I didn’t forget to feed the kids! (That’s a joke 😊) I enjoyed the company of a pretty cool 13 year old who spent the day with her mom, while we worked on Foundation business. I talked to my mom & dad, both my best friends and my BBC (big baby cuz) today. I spent 3 hours in a room full of entrepreneurs tonight. I ran into a friend from law school. I smiled and laughed a lot today. I also took some pretty dope pictures today! TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY!!
Look, this wasn’t what I planned on writing tonight–far from it–but, I almost let a good day turn bad because of what I was willing to focus on. I am going to do better. I am going to make conscious efforts to highlight my good, accept, learn from, and move past my bad. I don’t know about you, but I love feeling full of happiness, joy, love, and peace. I know that our days are numbered and I want all of mine to be GREAT ones. I want my light to shine so bright that it’s out here blinding folks, but everyone wants some! Exhale!! I am at peace y’all. This space that I am in feels so right and so good. Nothing in my life is as I had planned it to be, but for the first time in a very long time, it is where I need it to be. My SOUL feels free. I don’t feel bound to anyone or anything. I am not worried about what tomorrow may bring. Life has found a way to be good to me in its own little way, while allowing me complete freedom to be my authentic self. I am truly grateful for that. It has occurred more in my life than not, that I make lasting impressions on persons lives, and often times they will brand me with the same nickname 99.9% of the time: SUNSHINE. I own that nickname and I work very hard to live up to it.
This feels rushed, but I hope it doesn’t come across as such. The point I want to drive home is that we really have to focus on all that’s going right in our lives, because focusing on all the things that are going wrong will drive us crazy and through depression. Let us strive to do better. Let us walk in our greatness and own our happiness. We hold the key. The choice is ours: to be bitter or better. I hope you choose better with me. Highlight the good in your life today.
With Love & Respect,